• S:

    What's her appeal?

  • J:

    She has that... that...what's the word?

  • I:

    Aegyo?

  • J:

    YES

  • I:

    I like how I knew you were looking for a Korean word.

  • S:

    What's the word in Chinese?

  • J:

    Deh

  • I:

    Deh? That's so ugly!

  • J:

    And aegyo isn't?

  • J:

    It sounds like egg yolk!

Where some guys propose on a knee, Jesus proposed on the cross.

David Crowder Oh, How He Loves Us
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“Then the Sergeant made a fire out of sticks and began cooking supper for his men. He was making rice in an enormous pot, and while the rice was boiling, he took from the truck a great stem of bananas and started snapping them off the stem one by one and peeling the and slicing them up and dropping the slices into the pot of rice. When the food was ready, each askari produced his own tin plate and spoon and the Sergeant dished out large portions with a ladle. Up to then I hadn’t thought about my own food and I certainly had not brought anything with me. Watching the men eat made me hungry. ‘Do you think I could have a little of that, please?’ I said to the Sergeant.

‘Yes, bwana,’ he said. ‘Have you got a plate?’

‘No,’ I said. So he found me a tin plate and a spoon and gave me a huge helping. It was absolutely delicious. The rice was unhusked and brown and the grains did not stick together. The slices of banana were hot and sweet and in some way they oiled the rice, as butter would. It was the best rice dish I had ever tasted and I ate it all and felt good and forgot about the Germans.”

-Going Solo, Roald Dahl

This dish is delicious.

Yesterday, I would have said I wear a lot of color. Today, I realized I wear a lot of the same colors.

Yesterday, I would have said I wear a lot of color. Today, I realized I wear a lot of the same colors.

  • Gil Pender:

    Were you scared?

  • Ernest Hemingway:

    Of what?

  • Gil Pender:

    Getting killed.

  • Ernest Hemingway:

    You’ll never write well if you fear dying. Do you?

  • Gil Pender:

    Yeah I do…I’d say it’s probably, maybe my greatest fear actually.

  • Ernest Hemingway:

    Well it’s something all men before you have done, all men will do.

  • Gil Pender:

    I know, I know

  • Ernest Hemingway:

    Have you ever made love to a truly great woman?

  • Gil Pender:

    Actually, my fiancé is pretty sexy…

  • Ernest Hemingway:

    And when you make love to her you feel true and beautiful passion and you for at least that moment lose your fear of death?

  • Gil Pender:

    No, that, that doesn’t happen.

  • Ernest Hemingway:

    I believe that love that is true and real creates a respite from death. All cowardice comes from not loving or not loving well, which is the same thing. And when the man that is brave and true looks death squarely in the face, like some rhino hunters I know, or Belmonte who is truly brave, it is because they love with sufficient passion to push death out of their minds. Until it returns, as it does to all men, and then you must make really good love again. Think about it.

California is a queer place - in a way, it has turned its back on the world, and looks into the void Pacific…. It’s sort of crazy-sensible. Just the moment: hardly as far ahead as carpe diem.
D.H. Lawrence
Somehow, sometime, I became someone else.

Somehow, sometime, I became someone else.

I briefly tangled with the idea of covering all my books in undyed muslin or butcher paper, so I could decorate and make my own book covers. I ditched the idea when I realized how much money it would take to cover that many books with fabric…and when I remembered that I have a habit of starting projects and never finishing them.

But now I only have one sad little bookshelf, with not very many books, so I’m toying with the idea again. Except, I have no idea where to buy fabric…or butcher paper…or anything crafty…in this country.

I miss America, with all its commercialization and big chain stores where you can just drive to the nearest Michaels or JoAnns (or Barnes & Nobles) and buy JOY for $9.99.

(Don’t get me wrong. I still love the mom&pop stores. I just don’t know how to find them here either.)

// Confessions.//

I have what could be considered an addiction…to cheese. and butter. …

We’re always lucky,” I said and like a fool I did not knock on wood. There was wood everywhere in that apartment to knock on too.
A Moveable Feast (via dlwlsk)

// Truth.//

Today I realized I was around when you had to look up the word Google in the dictionary.

Photo taken in Bath, England; September 19, 2009
2009. Boston. London. 2010. Los Angeles. 2011. Los Angeles. Seoul. 2012. ________

Photo taken in Bath, England; September 19, 2009

2009. Boston. London. 2010. Los Angeles. 2011. Los Angeles. Seoul. 2012. ________

When I meet Iris Apfel, the American interior designer and style maverick who has lately become a star, the first thing I notice are the glasses. They are the most enormous spectacles imaginable, round and black-rimmed with lenses so thick she looks as if she is peering through two giant magnifying glasses, like the designer Edna E Mode in The Incredibles. ‘I like them big, big!’ she tells me. ‘The bigger to see you with.’

Anything Goes (Telegraph

I want to be her when I grow old. 

// Confessions.//

I entered school at 3, finished at 20 and started working on my 21st birthday. I’ve always been the young one, and by default, the little one. While the little moniker will probably never go away, I’m suddenly starting to wonder - who will I be when I’m not the young one?

I never thought of myself of relishing being the youngest, and to a certain extent, many people in my life have never made me feel either inferior or superior, or even different - but on the other hand, some have, and from those, I’ve mainly received a good deal of undeserved love.

And now, I’m in a land where people ask you your age before your name. So, though I’m not quite near old, or even middle-aged, life has a way of creeping along until it slaps you with a certain uncontrollable suddenness, and I’m left sitting here wondering.

Who will I be when I grow up? 

I live in a city that is not mine.